Never take your own revenge, beloved, but leave room for the wrath of God, for it is written, “VENGEANCE IS MINE, I WILL REPAY,” says the Lord.
I’m here to share with you my many experiences that I have gone through, and every time God has made that situation right. Our loving father is a father of justice. He promises to make every wrong situation RIGHT. It is up to us to trust him, and have faith that He will do just that. We must not take matters into our own hands, and let wrong doings turn us cold-hearted and evil. I myself have not always believed the way I do now and I can assure you that if I had the same faith that I do now, I would have saved myself from a lot of heartbreak and trouble.
I like many of you have not always had this strong faith and trust in God. I’m sure that many of you have been through situations and done things in your past life that you just aren’t so proud of now and maybe even a little embarrassed of. I’m here to tell you that it’s okay to talk about those experiences. I am not ashamed of anything I’ve ever done or let happen in my life because it has all led me to God.
From the time I was a little girl I always knew God had a special eye out for me. He put me through situations that I could only get out of through him. Now that I am older and have looked back on my life I can understand that God was going to do everything he had to do to get me to where I am now.
So it all started when I was about 10 or 11 years old when I started to realize that some of the things that were happening to me just were not right. I was always more mature than all my cousins and friends at school. The older I got, the more television I would watch, I eventually started to plug things together in my mind and I knew that this wasn’t something normal to be happening to a young girl my age. I became confused and tormented by everything that was going on around me. Being the little confused and angry girl that I was, I decided to take a key and run it up and down my abusers vehicle. I should have known this was very strange behavior for a young girl. My reason for doing that was because I was so angry at the man for what he had put me through. I had just seem him laughing and going about like he could do anything he wanted. I had enough and just decided to act on how I felt at the moment.
I can honestly tell you that I think that little 11-year-old put the fear in that mans heart because he never hurt me ever again after that.
Knowing everything I know now, I understand that was very wrong and I should have just let God do what he does best, because God ended up making that situation very right. He gave me the justice that I desperately searched for and needed. If only I had waited for God to do the justice instead of taking matters into my own hands.
I don’t think I learned my lesson quite yet. I was still so young and had a very long road ahead of me. You see God will allow things to happen in your life over and over until you learn the lesson he is trying to teach you. So take every experience and ask God what it is that he is trying to get across to you.
I remember this time in my life-like it had just happened yesterday. I was 18 years old at the time and I was living the summer of my dreams. I wasn’t the normal 18-year-old, I was very unpredictable and too caught up in a wild crazy life. I had just graduated and had been working at a restaurant for about a year now. A co-worker of mine had just told me all about her new job and how well it was working out for her. She offered me a job there and me being the young money hungry kid that I was, I gladly accepted the offer. My initial plan was to work 2 weeks there and get a quick paycheck and leave. Without giving it any thought, that is exactly what I did. During those weeks that I worked there I got to know the owner and his family a whole lot better. I started to discover that my co-worker who offered me the job was having an affair with the owner, all while she was smiling and getting to know his wife and children. I thought it was especially evil that this man was a preacher. Here he is preaching to believers while he is willingly living in sin. It was all so corrupt.
I continued to work and mind my own business until I finally just sent a text saying I quit. I know right, very professional. At the time I didn’t really care about what they would think of me. I just wanted my check that I earned and to never hear from those people again.
Well I never did get a response from that man or the co-worker. I called and texted for months and never received any word on when or if I was going to receive that check. Eventually, I came to the conclusion that I had just been scammed. I knew that I was never going to see that money, and I somehow knew that was their plan even before I started working there. I had been what you call, bamboozled.
This made me angrier than I had ever been. I texted and called that whole summer, knowing that I was never going to get an answer. One day I was driving past that store with those angry thoughts lingering in my mind, I decided to take matters into my own hands. So I did what I thought was getting even. I took a metal bat and smashed it through the glass window. “Surely this will cost you what you owe me,” was all I was thinking as I swung that bat. I drove off feeling relieved and that little red devil on my left shoulder was surely proud of what I had just done.
Little did I know this was just the beginning of what I thought was the end of this whole feud. I don’t know what I was thinking actually, like I was going to get away with this. Let me tell you friends. YOU ARE NOT GOD. You cannot go around getting revenge for every person who has ever mistreated you. You’re not only going to get in a lot of trouble, but you’re going to get bit with the same treatment you are out giving to other people.
Well I ended up getting arrested for the whole thing. I spent a good 6 hours thinking about the humiliation I had just caused not only myself but my family as well. “They are going to be so disappointed in me,” was all I could think that whole time. That wasn’t the worse yet. I was free from that place but now I had the real world to deal with. My face was all over social media and I had received sympathy texts from everyone I knew. The humiliation I endured was punishment enough. The world now thought I was the bad guy and I couldn’t explain my side because I had already committed a crime and no one would take me seriously.
A few months later I see in an article the same man who scammed me was being arrested for vehicle theft. If I had just let God do the justice instead of taking matters into my own hands! The man was caught and exposed for everything he truly was. A liar, a con-artist, and a cheater. I didn’t have to do anything, God did. Seeing that article did give me joy knowing that God was taking care of me the whole time. He was at work when I didn’t even realize. Since then I know God has forgiven me, and he is the only one who I will allow to judge me.
Ignore those thoughts in your head that are screaming at you to get revenge. It took me a while to finally understand that God is going to fight battles for us. He promises to. Trusting him to do so can be really hard but it is the right thing to do. I can’t express how important it is to just trust him. Look at all the trouble I got into by taking matters into my own hands. I am telling you guys because I have experienced first hand. If someone is treating you unfairly, don’t worry. Pray for them because you know they have another thing coming. God has your back like no body else ever will. Trust Him. He sees everything and He’s going to make a way for you.